You'd think that I'd be sooooooo against all the body positivity stuff going on right now, but honestly looking back at myself when I was a teenager going up to my early-early twenties I'm like: omg maybe it's a good thing, because I used to be SO anorexic! And for what? When looking at myself right now, at almost 26, I'm only what? Like 15 lbs heavier than I used to be when I was 16? 15 lbs is a lot I'm not stupid, but I'm not being super restrictive anymore and I'm just eating whatever and not caring about how fat I am. So compared to 5 years ago, when I weighed like 90lbs, it's like not THAT much heavier. I'm 105lbs thats still a size 0 (or whatever sizes are right now lol, all that stuff confuses me). I kind of just buy XS/S, exept for pants 'cause I'm too friggen tall. Ok tangent OVER back to body positivity! Being totes positive about my body right now and other peoples bodies!

Ok SUPER embarrassing to admit this, but I used to genuinely kind of have this repulsion towards fat people. I couldn't look at them for too long or I'd be imagining what I'D look like at that size and that would make me want to barf. I know that's genuinely psychotic, that's why I'm talking about it here, because I used to be super fucking insane. Like, why did I care about how fat other people are? It's not like that's ME. Like I wasn't fat so why did I give a shit. I know that's not what body positivity is about, but it's kind of related right? LOL.

I can't say I'm 100% body positive. I know this isn't PC, but I still think fat people are kind of ugly.I've learned to shut my mouth about stuff like that though. And it's not like there aren't any fat people I'd hook up with. My best friend is definitely plus sized, but it's like ( . )( . ) you know? XD And she has a big phattt ass, which is really in right now. I can't say I disagree, I mean I always thought it suited her and it's not like her butt made her look fatter than she already was, but it's funny how stuff changes because I still remember asking people if my butt looked fat in those jeans. Spoiler alert: No, I'm like flat as a board.

Body positiveeee